There are definitely days when I don't feel up to the challenge, when dinner is something thrown together, the laundry hasn't been folded even though I washed it days before, and when I lose my temper for the stupidest reasons, but there are also moments of great joy, happiness, and contentment.
Most days are actually pretty good. We got to the gym, we go grocery shopping, we play at parks, all of the things I did before there were 3 of them. However I can't think of the last time I went out in public and didn't have someone tell me, "you must have your hands full" or "are they all yours?" But I love them so it's all worth it. So far I haven't gotten any more comments about how to use birth control or how I need to learn more about "zero population" like I did while I was pregnant, but now I just notice the wide eyes as people realize that yep- they're all mine (with the same father too!)
Sometimes we stop and look at our brood and laugh- how did we end up like this! I'm only 26! But I wouldn't change it. Yes I wish we could travel more, go on more dates, have my pre-baby body, and not wake up before 7:00, but then I would miss out on all the hugs, kisses, funny conversations, bubble blowing, tickle fights, crazy faces, hide and seek, park playing, book reading wonderfulness that is my life.
I have been reflecting a lot the past few days on the great blessing that it is to be a mother and have an eternal family. My dear friend Katie's sister lost her sweet girl this week in a tragic accident. I have been looking at my crazy, wonderful kids with new eyes as I cherish the time we get to be together. I can't imagine losing one of them, and this weekend they've gotten so many hugs, and kisses, and words of love as I've tried to be a better mother.
2 comments:
Beautifully said Sarah! Life is crazy with kiddos but oh so worth it.
Beautifully said indeed. You have a precious bunch of little ones and they are blessed to be yours.
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